Gardens

[Patches59]

I’ve paid almost $50 @Dimity for speaking to the doctor, cost of the meds plus express post.  

no probs about the cruise.  Can kinda understand.

I do the 10 weeks with my therapist where I only pay part of the cost.  Rest of sessions are 100% out of pocket.  Am thankful (and lucky) I’ve got the $ to do that.  From what I mentioned I fully understand you feeling dubious.  All last year, my fault for not saying something, each session was just talking about the previous 4 weeks (ie since seeing her last).  This year it is so different including my therapist asking if I am ok about certain things or ideas she has.  Last time she had me do ‘homework’ (I had to record which schema, how I felt and my thoughts right through to how adult with no MH issues would react), she became too repetitive when going through what I had recorded.

therapist has mentioned maybe doing couple other types which involve role play type.  Too far out of comfort zone for me.  Anyone in my personal space unsettles me now.  More than 18mths seeing her, I still can’t fully open up or show negative emotions/tears when with her.  Outside the forums, not comfortable telling anyone.

[Patches59]

@Dimity   Online company have replied and have given me code to book doctor consult with one of their doctors at $0.  Now waiting on phone call.  Fingers crossed, might be sent new script and my meds today

[Patches59]

@Dimity  Thank you for being the ‘voice’ of calm last night.  Staff member from online company has advised Aust Post have confirmed tracking info has not been updated plus due to recent public holiday they can’t guarantee delivery on time.     Aust Post not like it was couple decades ago.

with mix of the meds stuff plus yesterday blocking X number relatives on FB …. Today is not a good day.  Having reached out to certain relatives that I had good rapport with in younger days, seeing posts and photos of ‘aunts and cousin get together s’ to which I’ve been excluded ….. I know I’ve made right decision for me, still hurts though

[Dimity]

Are you OK @Patches59 with the meds withdrawal? I hope you get the meds very soon.

Being excluded must hurt. A couple of years ago I was excluded from the family line-up at a wedding.  That hurt deeply. And my Christmas cards and messages have been ignored. I try not to dwell on it.

The shared front garden looks good today with dead flax lily gone and fresh mulch down.

[Patches59]

Script issued by online doctor today and filled by my local pharmacy.  Had headache early @Dimity, think was general tension headache due to worrying about getting the meds.   Lots of tears and SI started last night.  Weird dreams last night with few hours sleep.  

they are only group of cousins on my dads side in this town, this state in fact.  Recently saw photo of some of them at a cafe, comment by one cousin was about not getting the invite.  I posted same comment.  Her comment has been acknowledged, mine ignored.  Reconnected with one about 2 yrs ago and given different reasons why her mum can’t catch up.  Few days ago they all met at her mums and posted photo on fb.  That was final straw.

as my MIL used to say, better to be alone and have no one than have people in your life who don’t care.

still feel flat.  This afternoon though did some work on project I’m doing for lovely 80+ year old relative who has very limited internet knowledge.  Project involves manually creating and typing descendants of husband and wife who came to Australia in late 1800’s, making it into a descendant family tree with more than 100 names.

looks nicer out front of my place and much neater without the huge Daisy type plants.  Need to get some succulent potting mix so can get the little succulents planted plus the piece of kalanchoe that I accidentally broke off.  

[Dimity]

Well done on getting the meds @Patches59 .

I only have 2 cousins but have lost touch with both.

Your genealogy work might inspire a reunion. Many years ago there was one for descendents  of one of my ancestors. 

One of my neighbours doesn't like gardens, says he likes flat lawn. I guess it's neat...

[Patches59]

@Dimity @as of this morning, Aust Post showing meds (plus express post) I paid for last Thursday are estimated to be delivered this Friday.

on my mums side I have 20 first cousins.  On my dads side I have zero first cousins but lots of second cousins, most are in Sth Australia.

front garden of people here range from very heavily planted to artificial grass.

[tyme]

Oh no @Patches59  - did you end up getting the meds? Mine get couriered by my pharmacy fortnightly. I can see it would be so frustrating not to have the meds you need - and on time!

How have you been otherwise?

HOw does your garden grow?

[Patches59]

@tyme  My doctor gives me repeats which work well except when Dr goes on leave and I didn’t know.

meds I spoke to online dr Thursday last week are now sitting at local post office waiting for me to collect after 2pm today.  

2 days without meds. Today 2nd day back on meds.  At times just cry and cry plus at night hope I don’t wake up.

yesterday did some retail therapy …. Clothes and plants.

last few hours been repotting new plants plus potting up piece of kalanchoe I accidentally broke of original plants plus couple weeks ago.  Plant will go for sale at in house community garden and vegetable sale on Saturday.

[Dimity]

Hope your depression lifts quickly @Patches59 . It can be miserable. 

What new plants did you get?