Don’t want to accept the pain

[Jynx]

So fair @creative_writer today can be a write off maybe!! Do you have energy to do something fun or creative maybe? Might help refill your cup!

[creative_writer]

@Jynx I have no energy 😑. Probably too burnt out to function. My head feels really heavy

[Jynx]

@creative_writer Trash tv and chocolate then? 😋

[creative_writer]

@Jynx even the idea of chocolate does not sound appealing, I don't even feel like eating dinner tonight, but I know I will need to. Though I can watch TV in small bouts.

I feel so flat out tired and feeling sort of hopeless. These chronic mental health and physical conditions sort of get to you. Not being able to find work and barely getting any interview is frustrating. I'm also sick of being on Job Seeker

[Jynx]

@creative_writer oof, yeah that sounds like burnout methinks - nothing appeals, no energy even for the good stuff. Sorry that food is a forced thing and not something for enjoyment at the moment too, so rough. Even your safe foods?!

Yepppp I bet, jobseeker does not give much wiggle room does it! And the appts and the requirements.... Not helpful for burnout recovery!! 

Maybe you need the whole weekend off!!

[Jynx]

@creative_writer 

[creative_writer]

@Jynx I think I am sort of numb. Eating food just feels like a chore right now, even the food I do enjoy eating.

I don't have job provider appointments anymore since I made the switch to online self-management, Though it only really got approved on Wednesday. I called up on Tuesday regarding the progress of request for self-management, I spent ages on the phone. The first person on Workforce Australia told me i was not eligible and would have to talk to Centrelink. Centrelink could not do another at their end so told me to contact Workforce Australia. Finally, I got a lady on the phone who followed up my request with support and told me it just had to get through management to double check things to finalise an approval. I do still have mutual obligations to do, but I am applying for a lot of jobs so I am able to meet the target

[Jynx]

@creative_writer ach, that sucks. Have you been experiencing this for a while now? 

So many hoops.... Ugh, it just makes me so mad that there are SO MANY BARRIERS to accessing support 😠 no wonder you're burnt out!

[creative_writer]

@Jynx I’ve been more migraines since the day I slept poorly. It’s day number 2, so I’m like extra burnt out. I was already burnt out but it’s at another level now. My emotions are blunted now.

Honestly I don’t think I needed a job provider right now. I’m not sure why I was allocated one. Usually if you qualify you are initially allocated as self management, and if someone really struggles they might be allocated a provider. I’m sort of doing my own thing for now. I’m not worried about meeting points and obligations, it’s manageable.

However, the thing that gets to me is there isn’t much out there I want to do. Maybe it’s apathy or maybe I haven’t found many options that may be the right fit for me. Yes, there may be options I like, but I haven’t heard anything back yet from those options

[Jynx]

@creative_writer You considered whether anhedonia might be a factor? I wonder if there's research into links between anhedonia and burn out...