I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Hi @Jynx 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 Allo! 

Surviving the heat ok today? Has Jett given you any more trouble?

[Captain24]

It was t really that hot here today. I’ve only just turned the air con on. @Jynx. I just checked and it’s 33 degrees currently. 

Jett’s just being Jett. Getting in the way. He was sitting on my lap chewing a bone and had his bum in my face, when I went to move his butt he growled at me! Little shit! 

Tell me more about this ADHD thing. Meds wise are you on an antidepressant? Tell me to mind my own business… My guess is that if I do have it I’ll get medicated and it’ll show up in drug tests! 

It was interesting the questions she asked. Focus was a big thing. 

[Jynx]

Yeah see now 33 IS hot @Captain24 🤣 You sun-lover ain't ya!! My ideal temp range is 16-25 - anything above 30 makes me cranky!! 

omg LOL at first I read that as 'His butt growled at me' and I was just like.... did he fart or...? 😅

Nah no antidepressants here! Not sure what the interaction would be, cos pretty sure one acts on serotonin receptors and the other on dopamine receptors so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

I mean yeah it would show up in drug tests but if you have a prescription then it's a non-issue. Is it your workplace you're concerned about? 

Haha yeeeaaaah focus is the eternal struggle hey 🙃

[Captain24]

OMG… I’m cold if it’s under 25 and not happy unless it’s over 30! @Jynx 

I guess I shouldn’t think about it until it’s confirmed and it’s going to be a while away. 

Focus for me is really bad. I’ve always suspected it anyway. My psych said ‘refresh my memory, do you have ADHD?’ I said that it’s not diagnosed but I think so. That’s when she started to check it out. 

Anyway.. how’s life been treating you? 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 lol that's so wild to me! Did you grow up somewhere with a colder climatethan where you are now? Seems to me growing up in hot makes you prefer cold and vice versa - me growing up northern NSW was hot enough! 

Haha I swear I've developed a sixth sense for seeing ADHD in others. I think I've helped like, 6 or 7 people get diagnosed just from noticing stuff and sharing memes!! Your psych prolly the same!! Like a spidey sense but for executive dysfunction 🤣

Even if it's a while away, doesn't mean it doesn't bear thinking about!! Well, unless it's stressing you out lol then never mind. 

How's life been hmmm.... Had a pretty awesome psych sesh today, talked a bit on my back pain and how this year is a body-work year for me. I have actually managed to maintain an exercise habit (most days anyway) for almost 2 months, which is a huge accomplishment considering I have literally never been fit or athletic in my life! Been enjoying extra creative flow lately too, but of course can't dedicate anywhere near the time to it I'd like to because Capitalism. But yeah been working on some more house decor, and a spicy board game 😋

[Captain24]

Nah.. I grew up here. I’ve been here 42 yrs out of my 47.5 years! @Jynx 

Im guessing she has noticed the signs. I want to find out soon. It could mean the meds that I’m on aren’t right and I could possibly feel better. That’s my biggest concern. To be able to feel semi ‘normal’ maybe find out who I am. Or maybe my meds are just wrong for me anyway. It was nice to hear her say that she thinks they are wrong, that I should be feeling better. It was validating! 

Im glad you had a good appointment. It feels good ay… 

Exercise.. what’s that? 😜 

Good on you for giving in a red hot crack. 

Awesome having a creative streak. Hope you can end up finding the right time and the rest of life doesn’t get in the way. 

Im interested in this board game!! 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 Talk about a sense of home!! Wow! 

Oh that's so validating!! And fingers crossed you can get it all sorted and onto the right meds 🤞 No shade on antidepressants, they work wonders when they're the right fit - but when they're not, holy crap do they seem to cause disruptions! Ach, the guesswork that has to be involved sometimes to try to figure out what is going to help us and what's going to hinder us! 

Nawww thanks bebs, it's been hard!! But hopefully will get to see results soon! COME ON BODY, BICEPS WHEN?!

Hahaha you might regret asking if you're uhh... a vanilla kinda person. It's a kinky game 😋 Basically snakes and ladders but with a very raunchy overhaul, and also stealing the 'chance' cards from monopoly and then each of those has like, a lil game or challenge. Work in progress haha but I'm thinking of also making a solo version 😉

[Captain24]

My old Pdoc in hospital took me off my antidepressant as they don’t work well for bipolar and were causing me a lot of anger @Jynx 

The appointment left me feeling out of sorts for other reason but the validation was great. 

I need to get into exercise. Especially at my age. 

Im totally not vanilla 😜 I’m asexual but there is stuff in the background! Solo sounds interesting… My mind is going places. Shame you can’t share. 

[Jynx]

Yeah I've heard that @Captain24, like they treat only the depression side of things and gives the mania the spotlight or something like that. Glad you're off em now!

Yeah we're past 30 now, we're in 'use it or lose it' territory! I totally relate to the enormity of the task of trying to self-motivate for it though. I think ADHD is part of that!! 

Oooh a fellow kinkster!! That makes me extremely giddy for some reason. Probably just that wonderful feeling of knowing that if I share, I will be understood 😊

Hmm let's see if I can share without being explicit, first off TW: Sexual content:

Content/trigger warning

So the solo one is more around dice rolls - I called it Doom Dice 😂😂 You roll a d20 to determine the... 'activity' and then roll dice to determine how many and for how long. Making it all about the tease!! Then there's like a chaos die to roll if you wanna make things interesting... or maybe I'll make it part of the d20, haven't decided! And then if you're naughty.... punishment die with all sorts of impactful outcomes muahaha 😈 

Ooh I dunno if it's still active cos I don't have facebook anymore but I did once join this group called like, non-vanilla aces or something like that. Mayhaps worth checking out? It's always nice to find comrades in kink hehe