I can’t cope

[Captain24]

All good, just wasn’t sure. @tyme 

I dont think it would hurt to get the assessment but it’s what you do after that is in your control. I think there will be a lot of answers though. But I guess it’ll take time to learn. The meds are difficult. Stimulants can cause mania but so can antidepressants they’re the two treatments for adhd. I feel like it’s just more labels. But I guess it’s labels that may help me to recover. Finding the right meds and treatment will hopefully set me on the right path. 

You can’t catch a break right now. You sound so run down. Are you eating properly? Drinking water? Listen to me.. I should think about these myself! 😂 

Nah. I don’t have any plans. I think doing all the house work this morning is enough. I’ll mow the lawn tomorrow. I have done some Lego. I ordered the tweety bird one so I need to finish the one I’m doing so that I can start it. 

I love connecting with you too. I talk to you guys more than I talk to anyone! 

Sometimes I feel like I’m too much for you. 

[tyme]

OMG!!!! @Captain24  I posted the reply below and it never got sent! Sorry to keep you waiting!

Here's the post:

You are not too much for me. Sometimes, things get busy here or life gets tough and I may be more distant, but it doesn't mean you are too much. @Captain24  I always remember how 'tough' I was as a client. I was not easy to work with at all. As soon as I think about it, NO ONE is too much for me lol. 

I don't think I could do this role if it wasn't for the dark, hard journey I've been through. It also means I have hope for you and many others. I certainly didn't deserve anything and I'm no one special - but things worked out when it was the perfect time. 

With the assessments, I feel you are right in saying it will help with treatments. It's like an 'Ah ha!' moment and may answer why things they are the way they are. But like you said, it doesn't 'fix' the issue - it just guides you.

I don't know what I'm doing later either. I might just rest up. It's warm here - around 34 degrees.

[Captain24]

It’s ok. I know you get busy and that there’s lots going on @tyme. I try not to be too much but sometimes I know that I am. 

Im a pretty compliant patient, well maybe not so much with my dietitian, but I think k that’s the people pleaser in me. 

Your experience is so helpful. It enables us to know we are not alone and that you do fully understand. My psych has cPTSD and had to deal with her own trauma so it’s like she gets it too. But she is just amazing!

Yeah it defs isn’t a fix. There is no easy way out of this. But like you said it’s the Ah Ha moment. It guides where to work from. 

Im thinking of going back to bed. I’ve had enough of this afternoon. 

It’s warm here too. It’s 34 as well. 

A rest sounds good. 

[tyme]

True @Captain24 . It's really good to know that all our experiences can make a difference in people's lives - any experience and not just MH related. 

There's just so much to learn in life - that's what I feel. I think I'm someone who likes to continually be learning.. actually, come to think of 'learning', weren't you doing some course? I'm still in the middle of two lol. I haven't touched one in over a year - oops! The other one will hopefully be finished mid this year.

Ruby keeps coming to my house. I can hear her on the stairs. I think she wants me to take her for a walk - but it's just so hot out there. If I had more energy, I'd go and clean the pool so it's ready for when it's hot next time. I'd like to go in, but I'd better be careful with the shingles for now. 

Oh, I'm hopping off now. I was supposed to hop of before but I wanted to chat to you. 

Just know I'm thinking of you. And no, you are NOT to much for me 🙂

Hugs to you.