My Mosaic

[Bow]

I'm going home! Just waiting for my folks to come and pick me up. Sigh, what a week. 

they were wanting me to stay here longer, at least over the weekend. I am still flat, and they could tell that I was. But I explained the complication of staying here over the weekend and having to tell my ex that I am in hospital again, so they agreed to allow me home. 

ive got case management in the community I think and also they mentioned CBT and a psychologist too. So I have some additional supports. 

[Snowie]

So happy for you @Bow Glad you are able to go home.

[Eve7]

That’s great about going home @Bow  I’m sure your D will be in your bed tonight!

Good news about the extra support too. Have a good weekend my dear friend.

🦋💜🤗🙏🤗💜🦋

[Bow]

Haha yes @Eve7 ! I was just saying to my Mum I am looking forward to crawling into my own bed tonight and my d pipes up and says 'how about I sleep in your bed tonight and we can have lots of snuggles and lots of hugs'. 

I'm nearly ready for bed I think. So tired. 

[Eve7]

Sweet dreams @Bow 

💜🤗🦋🤗💜

[Anastasia]

@Bow 💕

@Eve7 @Snowie 🌹🌷

[Eve7]

@Anastasia 

💖🦋🤗🦋💖

[Bow]

Good morning my forum friends. 

im snuggled on the couch catching up on some tv shows that I missed while in hospital for the week, have dropped my d off at her fathers for the day, anxious to see if she says anything about me being in hospital. I hate that she can tell him things about my life and he thinks he has the right to say anything. It's like I have no privacy, yet I know nothing about his. It sucks. 

I also popped into bunnings to grab some veggie seedlings before bunnings closes on Monday. I also got some outdoor cushions as I've ordered myself a hanging chair for outside my room. Looking forward to spending time out there in my chair in the sun. Also grabbed some fire wood, we need to cure the firepit once more before we can have a proper fire night, my d is excited about it. 

will probably plant the seedlings tomorrow, I don't plan to do much today, just need a day to rest guilt free. I got some cucumber, lettuce and strawberries. We have already planted some beans, snowpeas and tomatoes. So hopefully a good crop this summer for salads. Also added to my indoor plant collection 🙂

im feeling a bit fragile today. It's weird being home.  Part of me still needed to be there, I really wish that I did have the complication of my ex in my life.  Really need to put things into place so that I don't end up back in hospital again. My psychologist has finished, and the practice called and left a message during the week for me to call to arrange an appointment with another psychologist. Im anxious about that. I need to hear from community mh to find out exactly what their involvement will be first though. Maybe I won't need to see a private psychologist? I'll need to book in with the professor again too. 

Sorry I'm just rambling this morning. I have so much going on inside me. I haven't really 'talked' much to anyone about everything that happened. I find it hard to talk with the nurses in the psych wards. There were a couple that made themselves known to me that they were my nurse for the shift, I liked when they did that. I liked that they would check in. Not everyone did that. Anyways, back to catching up on tv shows. 

[Eve7]

Thank you for the update @Bow 

A couch day catching up on tv is a good idea then you can do some gardening tomorrow with your d.

Your garden will be flourishing by summer. I’ve been a bit slack in the garden lately but I do have tomatoes growing in the compost and I picked a pineapple the other day which I’d grown from a pineapple top. 

I’m just waiting while S1 has a dressing done on his injured leg and then we’ll go home for my Nanna nap.

Take care 💙🤗🦋🤗💙

[Bow]

My anxiety is so bad right now I want to cry. 

d is home. Now just waiting to see if she said anything to her father about me being in hospital again. I am so terrified.  It is not fair that I have zero privacy and that he can find out things about me that is none of his business. I can't exactly tell my daughter... ' don't tell dad about such and such'. 

I hate this so much. #%¥£