Tough Times

[Lee82]

Thanks @Appleblossom. How are you going today? Being watched all the time is horrible. Can't even go to the bathroom without being questioned.

[Lee82]

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[Snowie]

Hi @Lee82 

How is today going?

[Lee82]

Today has been real tough. Not doing the best at the moment @Snowie. how are you? 

[Snowie]

Sorry to hear your day has been tough @Lee82 

Am around for a little if you need a chat.

[Lee82]

I just have so many emotions running through me right now I don't even know where to begin. Feeling like I have fallen into a deep black hole with no way of getting out of it. Can't control my anxiety can't  stop the tears. I just want to run away and never come back. The amount of guilt I am feeling right now is unbelievable. My kids don't deserve any of this. I am a burden to everyone. None of my tools seem to be working its just frustrating and disheartening. 
I'm sorry @Snowie that's probably a lot of heavy stuff right there. Hope your day has been good to you.  

[Snowie]

I can understand that deep dark hole hun @Lee82 , it is hard to climb our way out of. You are not a burden, especially not to your children. You are showing an enormous amount of courage to keep going for the sake of your children when times are tough.

I'm sorry none of your tools are working, it is hard when we try so hard but have no success.

My day has been ok 

[Lee82]

I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what the solution is. I don't know how to cope. I see all these people around me coping so well. Getting things done, enjoying their lives, dealing with the situation we are all living in at the moment, accomplishing activities etc and I find it difficult just to get up and go have a shower. @Snowie 

[Lee82]

what have you been up today? @Snowie 

[Snowie]

It is hard @Lee82 when our coping strategies are not working. Just take it an hour at a time or even a minute at a time. I go days without a shower sometimes. Not ideal but we just have to do what we can do to get through each day.

I haven't been up to much today. Got up early for ANZAC day but that is about it.