Acceptance is hard work

[MissinTooth]

@AuntGlow have a good rest of your night. 

[MissinTooth]

@Jynxif you don't mind, if you stumble upon this, can you check in please? 

[AuntGlow]

Good evening, @MissinTooth - How are you feeling today? 💕

[Till23]

Hey @MissinTooth how was your day today?

[MissinTooth]

@AuntGlow @Till23 My day has been unremarkable. Another day, another dollar. 

I'm not okay in it though, today. 

@AuntGlow can we re - visit last night? Can you help me to see what me approaching my course with curiosity could look like?

[Jynx]

Checkin on in @MissinTooth 💜

[AuntGlow]

@MissinTooth Ah yes, that isn't uncommon - it really can be hard to be in certain poses for long periods. I would suggest laying with your knees bent and your feet flat on the ground. You could also roll over to either side in the foetal position. This can feel really vulnerable at times, but also really nurturing for your inner child. But always listen to your physical and emotional body - you will know what is okay and what isn't. 😊

I understand what you mean. Maybe it's okay to simply be where you are at right now? What are your thoughts on that idea?

Hmm, good question! I think when we follow our curiosity, it can make more challenging things feel lighter and playful - it takes the pressure off having to know and ignites that sense of wonder. I also find it brings about a sense of compassion. So, if you notice that your inner critic has something to say or you are finding things overwhelming and can't focus, you could redirect to the question, 'what am I most curious about right now?'

Of course, this is just an exercise, and it's okay if it doesn't work for you! But I am ✨curious✨ to see if it does. Does that make sense at all? 🤔

[MissinTooth]

@AuntGlow thank you for the explanation. It's an interesting way to approach study. I've been on the verge today of emailing them to pull out of the course for now. But at the moment, I'm sitting with maybe just taking the pressure off...or trying to and like you suggested, just being where I'm at and that means only giving as much as I can and doing what I can. I don't know which option is the one I need. 

@Jynxthank you. Is it okay to be totally honest about where I'm at today and what's going on for me today?

[AuntGlow]

@MissinTooth My pleasure! And that's okay, you're allowed to take some time to think about it, approach it in different ways, leave it completely, or go all-in. I am happy to hear you have a few options to consider. 😊

Also, you're always more than welcome to share what is going on for you with us. I have no doubt that @Jynx will be waiting with open ears! 🥰

[Till23]

I'm glad your day was OK @MissinTooth 

You would have good experience at seeing people approach things with curiosity, because that's what children do, they don't have expectations when they learn something new. They just try it out.

Once you've got yourself into a mindset about doing well, achieving etc, it is hard to go back to that way of approaching things. However, it can be done.

I find it difficult to do and I often stray away from it, because my thinking has become ingrained. Hence the Not Good Enough Thread.

I think you can take some time to decide whether to delay your course or not, so try not to feel pressured about that.

If you'd rather I drop out of this thread, that is fine.

However, if you feel you want to say things then it's fine, it's up to you. It might help to share a little bit