Acceptance is hard work

[Till23]

Hi @MissinTooth I hope your day is better today.

I agree work was a big distraction for me. I'm glad you felt able to go today.

I'm sorry to hear last night was a difficult night for you. It was courageous of you to share your experience.

I'm sorry to hear you have psoriasis, which can definitely flare up with stress.

I also plan a lot including smallish things, I don't know if it's related to overthinking or not for me, because I often do that to, and yet sometimes I don't think enough!

I can understand how the tension builds up. When that happens for me I do something physical it might be doing things in garden or even the vacuuming but something like that, I sometimes go for a walk and include some runs or other exercises in there, That is usually enough to take away that really high distress moment. Although I do not SH, I have only actually tried the terminal type.

I will be on the forums later as I have a big afternoon with my dog this afternoon

Hope your work day is ok

[MissinTooth]

@Till23 thinking of you this afternoon. I'll be around later, so happy to chat if you're feeling up to it. 

[MissinTooth]

@Ru-beeI’ve filled out a safety plan using the resource you gave me. It’s kind of confronting but it’s something I have now. 

I don’t have anyone to talk to when these feelings and thoughts come up - no support network. And I feel kind of sensitive about that. It's come up for me a little recently. I put the forums down as a place to come for support. 

edit @Jynx @AuntGlow - so that I don't have three posts in a row...

I am ashamed and worried and teary. As well as the safety plan, I emailed the counsellor from SANE that I spoke to on Monday and just mentioned that self-injury was something to add to the list of things to talk about. 

[tyme]

Hey @MissinTooth ,

Glad to hear from you. 

I know you are doing your best. I can see you are doing what you can to see if you can get over this bump in the road. Remember, there are supports out there.

Are there things that have been working well for you recently?

I know you have your studies, work and everything else. Have you been able to put aside some protected time for yourself?

I arrived home yesterday arvo. I'm a tad exhausted, but I wanted to say hello to everyone here - my forums fam. 

I'm not staying online, so I'll respond when I'm able. 

I just want to say that it's really good to hear from you 🙂

[MissinTooth]

@tyme I just wanna say...

It's really good to hear from you, too. I value my connections with you. 

I hope you had a good time away? 

What's working well? I was going to say nothing...but then self-corrected. Drawing is working well, I'm really enjoying it and the kids at work have been throwing me drawing challenges. It feels good to be able to give something to them, but it also helps me to calm my brain a little and to focus on something that's not anxiety.

If I'm honest with you, I think the answer to whether I've managed to put aside some protected time for myself...the answer is not really. Everything I seem to do at the moment, is for someone else. 

And just sayin'...I don't feel like I'm doing my best at the moment. 

[Jynx]

Hearing it's been a rough couple of days @MissinTooth how you travelling this evening?

[MissinTooth]

@Jynx It's been a challenge. 

I'm tired, brain foggy and heavy headed. Too many thoughts today. It's been a long day, a long week and I'm keen just to disappear into my lounge and not come out for the rest of the weekend. 

I did get to deliver a birthday present to my beautiful niece this afternoon, which was lovely to hear her laughter and see her so happy. 

How are you?

[Jynx]

@MissinTooth aww some chill vibes sounds choice then hey. 

That sounds wholesome as!! Naww 😍

I'm not too bad, also in chill-mode just listening to the sound of the rain. Procrastinating my household chores as per 😅

[MissinTooth]

@Jynx household chores are so frustrating. You do them and within a few days they need to be done again. 

My niece loves ducks, so I took her a duck toy. It waddles around the house on wheels and sings the five little ducks song. It came with four baby ducklings that attach to the mother by magnet and get dragged along behind her. She loved it. 

It gave what's been a really rough day a little bit of light and shiny. 

[Jynx]

Haha @MissinTooth where's that meme of Sisyphus rolling the boulder up but it's labelled like 'the fecking laundry again' 🤣

Aww that is SO wholesome, yes sounds like a very precious moment to return to whenever it is feeling a bit dark, eh? 

🥰