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[Sunnyside226]

@tyme unfortunately you would wait 100 years for me to bake a cake 😂   

I go by him/ he / they it depends 

My partner is cooking nachos 

I am still in a angry cranky moody. 

@tyme does the pain even end yes I lost my mum/ dad I still have pain everyday  sometimes I want to be with them sometimes I shut down  

If that person doesn't like me it's ok I never meant to upset them  

[tyme]

Okay @Sunnyside226 , I'll wait the 100 years for this dream cake of mine, eh?

Pain and grief? Grief has no timeline. Talking about it can help a person move on. There a times when talking to a professional grief counsellor is helpful so that recovery is more attainable. Recovering from Grief does not mean you don't love the person you've lost. However, it means you've accepted the thing you cannot change, and you are ready to live in the present and make the most of it.

Even when your mum dad look at you now, what do you think they'd want you to be doing? crying, grieving? or moving on to support yourself and others? 

Do what you think they'd want you to do if they were here.

I recently had touch with a family who suddenly lost their mother. It was absolutely unexpected. Soon after the death, the family had an overseas trip to America booked. The family thought it better they stay in Australia as it was soon after the death. 

However. they sat back and considered, "What would mum want us to do?"

By answering that question, they took the trip to America, and this helped them with moving on.

Yes, I hear there is pain. But there is life too.

[Sunnyside226]

@tyme do you like sprinkles on your cake? 

Yes I see a councillor but haven't for a while I got busy  then she wants on holidays 

I know mum would want me to move on and live a life  do  things I love  

Dad couldn't care less  I tried to help him  I know he's watching me giving me shit and laughing ,  the only time I didn't answer he you know ...  I know they both want me to be happy and healthy live  but there's that pain inside me that I can't let go   yes it may sound selfish 

There's days where I just feel the pain more deep then others  yes they is time where I think about hurting myself  

It's been hard for me  I feel like it was my fault I all always blame myself for it now matter what 

Yes I have thoughts right now   sometimes I look up to others as a mum because I lost my and I don't have anyone 😔 @tyme   I'll be honest sometimes I look up to you I enjoy talking to you because you get me out of my anger ass mood you laugh with me joke around even if you don't mean it 😍  

[Sunnyside226]

@tyme I'm sorry if that was weird post the last one I did 

[tyme]

No @Sunnyside226 , It wasn't weird. It shows the real you. Just like the real me here. 

We all go through similar rough patches. 

TW: Self-Harm

Content/trigger warning

I self-harmed for many years. I was addicted to it. But the therapy worked with the underlying problems, then the self-harm dropped off. SH was a way of coping. Please note I am not condoning self-harm. I am sharing that I have also been down that path, but I'm still here to day. 

I've got a few battle wounds and scars to prove I've been in the mental health battle. Yet it's been worth it. 

My early adulthood was the hardest. It was as though I was thrown from being looked after and babied at school, to being let loose. From 17-26, I barely lived life. I just existed, thinking only to die... 

Now that I'm the other side, I can share my recovery with others.

Sprinkles? Yes! Why not? However, there MUST be chocolate icing/frosting. On top of that, no thanks to the new 'sprinkles' which are the size of baubles! When you take a bite into the cake, it's like you've bitten on a hard rock.. the textures just don't match... but 100s and 1000s are fine because they are small and don't break your teeth.

[Sunnyside226]

@tyme  so from 17_30  you never thought you had a life and just sh ?  I'm sorry you went through that   I'm glad you got help you needed that's not easy at all   

@tyme sprinkles isn't hard  what world do you live in?  Please tell me it's not the false teeth ? 😂. 

You know what  suck I hate when you have to go   

Hey I'm impressed with myself I have spoken to you all week  I normally go non verbal for weeks  

Honest I just wanna cry and give up 💔 I have never felt be broken inside numb inside I feel like I can't feel my body  I feel numb  

Honest Tyme you really are amazing  you turned my mood from angry to falf happy ☺️   

[Sunnyside226]

@tyme btw that teeth comment was a joke please don't take it seriously  I understand you will be angry now 

[tyme]

Hey @Sunnyside226 ,

I've got thick skin. No way will I get upset. I like talking to you and getting to know you more too 🙂

Yes, I do have to go, but I'll be back later this week (Wednesday). 

I'll tag you once I'm on?

Also, on Wed, remind me to show you pictures of the hard sprinkles I'm talking about. 

I don't even like the hard chocolate bits in icrecream.. they just don't match the texture! I think I'm texture sensitive and hence I don't chew much. Which means, my teeth are actually not used much lol 

Have a good evening. I'll see you Wednesday.

Hugs.

[Sunnyside226]

Night @tyme  hugs x

[Sunnyside226]

I feel like shit   I want the pain to stop