Don’t want to accept the pain

[creative_writer]

@Jynx I think dinner is a good place to start. I haven’t eaten for a while. Maybe I should have my PRN before sleeping, I will be sleeping it off tonight. I just don’t like the effects during the day, it slows my brain too much

[Jynx]

@creative_writer you got anything on tomorrow you wanna be sharp for? Maybe that can help guide the decision!

[creative_writer]

@Jynx, I do need to wake up for my GP’s appointment at 9:45 but I don’t have anything I need to do that requires a lot of attention. I’m waiting for things to settle a bit before I submit another job application. It probably won’t make much difference as organisations are closed for Easter.

Do you have much tomorrow?

[Jynx]

Hopefully lots of sleeping lol @creative_writer 

Sorry, frizzle frazzle brain is real! Did you end up feeling settled enough to submit the application?

[creative_writer]

@Jynx I’m hoping I do get plenty of sleep. My sleep has been pretty shit. Though it could be worse, on the bright side I’m getting sleep instead of going without sleep. I think sleep helps me cope with trauma rumination and impulses better.

I haven’t done any applications today, I am aiming to finish it by the time organisations re-open after Easter

[Jynx]

Yeah sleep impacts everything @creative_writer  I'm glad you're getting more of late!! 

Nice, slow paced and all, love it!! 

Do you have much on over next couple days otherwise?

[creative_writer]

@Jynx if it wasn’t for the PRN my sleep would be worse, but it’s still not controlling it. If only it was easier to cope with the intrusive memories. It breaks me over and over again.

I don’t have many plans for the coming week, my head feels heavy and my mind can’t slow down. I got ointment for my eye today for the chemist and picked up some dietary supplements

[creative_writer]

Does anyone feel their meds and/or supplements wear off in the evening?

[creative_writer]

I feel like I can’t even do simple stuff right now, it’s frustrating. I’ve done nothing much today. No job applications. No online training modules for Lifeline. Maybe I’m still settling from last week, but I can’t help but feel frustrated with myself. I can’t even concentrate on prayers

[creative_writer]

My mind won’t stop thinking. I wanted to live life with honour