I can’t cope

[Jynx]

@Captain24 👋😋

[Captain24]

Heeellloo @Jynx 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 that's a huge plus!! Aww warms me to hear!! What song was it? It's okay if it's a guilty pleasure song, I love those!

Day was alright, got my tyre swapped (I told you I popped it again? On the same bloody curb? lol) and spent a bit of time soaking up some sun. You get any sun today?

[Captain24]

It was maniac Monday by the bangles! It was just one line. ‘It’s 6 o’clock already and I was just in the middle of a dream’. Then I stopped, it was like I caught myself and said it’s not ok. If that makes sense. @Jynx 

No I didnt know you had done it again. Were you looking at someone this time or just bad driving! 😜 Make sure you get this one fixed just in case. You don’t want the same thing to happen as last time. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 yep that's normal - but did you remind that part of you that stopped you from singing that hey, even with that one line, literally nothing bad happened? That helps too! 

Ahh haha nah was probably too tired to be driving though (it was like, 3 minute drive so not that bad but still) - but nah I actually realised that it's cos there's a bit of uneven, jagged curb!! So like I wasn't going anywhere near as fast this time and I reckon if it had been even, I would definitely NOT have popped it!! Grumble grumble apple crumble!

[Captain24]

I just let myself think that’s a step forward but couldn’t continue. It’s like I don’t deserve it.  @Jynx 

I get the tired driving. I often struggle driving 40 minutes after nightshift. 

At least you now know what caused it. You know where to avoid. 

So on top of my struggle and self loathing, I have the period pain from hell and feel sick. Just to add to my misery. 

[ArraDreaming]

Hey cap

[Jynx]

@Captain24 "Don't deserve to sing" yahuh sure, because singing is a prize to be won or a privilege to be earned by...  wait by what exactly? What would one need to do to deserve to sing? 

You don't necessarily need to answer that, lol

Yeah.... was parking there to avoid bird poo cascades from the other spot in front of my house but... I think I'll take poo over $$$ gone!

Nooooo why!! Well, you have one reason to account for any extra rough emotional turmoil right now, your hormones are in charge!! Mine is fast approaching... hmm I wonder what will cause me to meltdown this month... 🤔 

Hope you're cuddled up with a hot water bottle?

[Captain24]

I don’t know @Jynx. It just felt wrong. It’s been a while since I’ve belted out a song. I use to enjoy it but now it doesn’t interest me. It’s like it’s just another thing the mess of a life has taken from me. 

Yeah.. I’d take the poo over expensive tyres. 

I can’t cope with anything else right now. The emotions have tipped me over the edge. I don’t usually have meltdowns. It doesn’t normally affect me I usually just get through with pain. 

Nah.. I just sitting in the lounge with the dogs. Feeling really sorry for myself. 

[Jynx]

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@ArraDreaming wrote:
Hey cap

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@Captain24 this for you hun 😊