I can’t cope

[Jynx]

@Captain24 ahaha little scamp! 

Yeah and my bag, I wonder if it's cos they want their scent on the things I take with me out of the house? 

Oh yeah, wanna foot the hundreds of dollars it'd cost to post it to me? 🤣😝

Naw it's cool, lol one at a time is much better for them anyway, then only one of them is super stressy at a time 😅

Much on tomorrow? I gotta do yard work ☹️

[Captain24]

Hahaha it may cost a little @Jynx 

Yard work is the pits!

I need to bath the dogs and mow the lawn. Plus I have to go to the markets and get dog treats. 

[Jynx]

We'll have similar days then @Captain24 chores and animals!! I gotta go to pet store too, they're overdue for their flea treatment 😪 

Hope the market has some sweet deals for you!! I'm off for tonight darlin, catch you next week! Sending a last lil batch of squishy hugs! 

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

[Captain24]

Thank you so much @Jynx 

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

[tyme]

I've been looking (a little) for a bag to buy. That's a start? 

When are you getting your med changes? How do you feel about it? Or are you having these changes during your admission @Captain24 ?

And yes! I feel my desk and my house reflects my mood. I used to say that about people. By looking at their desk, you can work out what's going on in their brains. Messy desk - messy brain. Tidy desk - tidy brain. 

I'm 'messy' brain at the moment. I also accidentally took my night meds this morning so I've had brainfog all day so far... my sister asked me to turn her washing machine on, and I couldn't even work out how.

And yes, the kids are on holidays. They have been okay today - so far. I think they have having an intensive swimming program tomorrow. I'm just staying at home.

And with Ruby, I took her for walks, but she hasn't really met any other dogs at the park. I'll have to take her again. Now that daylight savings has finished, I can't take her in the evenings.

[Captain24]

It is a start @tyme. Even if it’s just a little! 

My med changes will start next Monday. It can’t wait until August. If it’s anything like withdrawing from my antidepressant when I was in hospital, I’m in for a rocky road. 

I have to say that everyone I’ve ever seen has been more focused on the mania whether the elevated moods or the anger and irritability. No one has looked into the depressive side of things. 

Im glad it resonates with you. I felt like I was the only one. I’ve always been messy and disorganised. 

Oh that would be tough. Trying to stay awake and focus when your mind wants to be asleep. I hope you haven’t driven today if you can’t work a washing machine! 😜 

Good that they have been ok. They could be tired tomorrow night after an intensive day swimming. I know when I use to swim laps of a morning I would always be hungry and tired! 

Hopefully she will be ok if she is ok out walking. Yeah it’s dark early now. I hate the daylight savings switch. 

[tyme]

But you know what? Most people don't even realise there's daylight saving because the clock changes are all automated @Captain24 

I'll let you know how my sleep or lack of sleep goes tonight.

As for your med changes, I hope it's okay. It's been a long time and it seems your meds are still not stable.

[Captain24]

Everything changes so I don’t have to worry about the time. I just got an extra hour sleep for free though! 

I’ve taken my meds in the hope that they work quicker and better than last night. I have put them back outta reach. 

It’s been ages. She really wants to work on the depressive episodes before she will continue with any further testing. The episode could be enhancing or masking the symptoms. 

She is going to take away the munchie med and replace it with something else. It should help with the size increase that the munchie med caused. 

It’s going to cost me a fortune. I’m guessing she will want to monitor me though. I’m glad that I have my psych appointment the next day though. I need her after the last one. She opened so many wounds. So many. I’m still trying to put myself back together but I am failing.