My Mosaic

[Bow]

Hey @rav3n 

@how’s your day been?

im curled up on my bed. Did the lawns this morning and I don’t feel so good now. 

[rav3n]

@Bow my day's been okay. i've been sick for a bit so starting to recover now, taking things slow 😊

awh sorry to hear you're not feeling too good, did anything happen or is something worrying you? also good on you for mowing the lawn, a task checked off the list! 

[Bow]

Sorry you’ve been sick @rav3n  glad your starting to feel better though. 

I think I just over did it with the lawns maybe? Or cause I’m drinking too much? Feeling queasy, headache and my muscles are cramping. Did you know it’s not good to drink too much? Not alcohol, water etc. most days I’ve been drinking 8-9ltrs, I’m just so blinking thirsty. Gp said to cut back to 3! 

tomorrow I have a brain MRI and a pelvic ultrasound and I’m really anxious about them 

[rav3n]

thank you 💜 @Bow 

oh wow we're the opposites, i struggle to drink more than a litre of water a day! sometimes i have to put on alarms to remember to drink a cup of water 😅 it's hard cutting back hey, but perhaps that does explain the queasiness? could be that mixed with the lawn work and feeling anxious tomorrow?

do you have anyone going with you for the MRI and ultra sound? you got a lil squishy or fidget/comfort item to take with ya? to make it a lil less nerve-wrecking. 

[Bow]

Oh I use to be the same @rav3n really struggled to drink fluids, partly cause I would just forget and also part of my ED. But the last week I have just been constantly thirsty. I drink up to 2lts overnight alone. 

yeah could be a combination of all of it. I’ve got a headache too…. And Just told mum that it’s not because I haven’t drank enough! 

my SW is going to meet me there, mostly to ensure that I ask for a female tech for my ultrasound. I’m not doing it if it’s a male. They are super triggering for me and I always come out of them in not a great place. I gotta then have a mri. Really should have booked them for different days. 
I should see if I can find a fidget toy or something. 

I gotta take all my earrings out! 

[rav3n]

@Bow ahh yep, it's kinda hard to 'remember' to drink water right? i tend to wait till i'm thirsty to drink and esp in autumn/winter, i hardly feel thirsty! woahhh 2L overnight, do you end up running to the bathroom heaps? i get annoyed at having to get up to pee so i try avoid drinking overnight... but it's hard to resist the thirst!!

ohh hopefully you feel better soon, headaches suck!! totally fair, i really hope you're able to get the female tech tomorrow, and i hope everything runs smoothly. i know the space and sound get feel overwhelming, but you got this. does booking the mri and ultrasound in one day means you get a rest day this week? got anything planned for after the apts?

oh yeah trueeee, you got a lot of piercings??

[Bow]

Yeah I use to hardly drink all day and then be heaps thirsty in the late arvo/evening @rav3n  and yeah getting up in the middle of the night for the loo is the worst! Its Like keep your eyes shut as much as possible in the hope to get back to sleep easier. 
But yeah at the moment I usually manage to just get up once to go to the loo and fill my drink up again. Waking heaps cause I’m thirsty is really annoying though. 

I got my 2 scans tomorrow and then arts and crafts afterwards if I’m feeling up to it and depending what time I finish. I also have an appointment to see my CM at 2pm as well. I forgot about that one. Something else that gives me a whole heap of anxiety. 
Thursday my psychologist Urgh 😩😩😩😩 makes me wanna run away. 
Friday is Good Friday. D is going to her fathers and then maybe I can get away with doing not too much. But we have started packing. Mum did heaps today. I feel bad when I don’t do so much, so will see what happens. Not much for Saturday and then Sunday I think we will try and get to church. 

do you have plans for the Easter weekend?

oh my piercings. I have my naval and 11 ear piercings. It’s my daith and tragus that I’ll probably have issues with… especially putting them back in. I’ve got removed my daith before. 

[rav3n]

@Bow exactlyyyyy, esp when we're already struggling to get decent sleep and then our bladder wakes us up. can't even hold it in cos then we can't sleep!

sounds like a pretty full on week!! do take care, really hoping you get moments of rest in between 💜

is switching psychs possible? how long have you had your current psych for? 

oo yes, that friday off sounds good, fingers crossed you get a chance to rest up then. do you usually do easter egg hunts? 

i'm going away for the easter weekend with a couple family friends, no idea what we're doing - all i've been told is that an airbnb is booked and we might be playing some games so i'll have to pack some board/card games. 

ooo woahh 11!! was daith the most painful piercing to get? i think my friend said it was her worst one. i've got my nose, septum, firsts and seconds - i do wanna get more ear piercing tho!! have you got tatts too?

[Bow]

Not much hope for much rest unfortunately @rav3n packing house! Lots to pack. 

I’d really love  to switch psychs. I’ve had this one for about 2 years and I’ve never felt fully comfy with her. My comm mh have teams and the team im under I think only have 2 psychs. Mine and a male. And they don’t like to have you under different teams for different things. I kinda get it. But it also really sucks. I started at comm mh with just a psych. Then she thought it would be really helpful for me to have a CM, who are under a different team. So then I started having all services under my CM’s team and my psych was the only one under a different team. Then my psych left and I got a psych under the CM team. And that’s now where I am stuck. Hope that makes sense! There is lady under the other team who id so love to have as a psych. 

I haven’t done any Easter shopping yet. I need to do that. We do a small amount of eggs and then something else. This year I have bought my D a new quilt cover cause she badly needs one! We usually do a little bit of an egg hunt, just gotta be careful of the dog!

your Easter weekend away sounds nice. Always nice to get away like that with friends. What kinda games do you like to play?

Yeah my daith hurt a fair bit. It took ages to heal too. I got it primarily cause I use to get a lot of migraines. I’d like to get more piercings. Nah no tatts. But I’d like to get a couple I think. 

[Bow]

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