My Mosaic

[Jynx]

@Bow 

So like, main thing right now is feeling unsafe, right? What if that's where you start? Like literally let your psych know that you're not gonna be able to make progress until you feel safe in the relationship again. 

Maybe you could have a think about your therapeutic goals as well, and trace it back to like 'what would I want to accomplish in this session today that gets me one step closer'

Also, even tho your therapist doesn't like you writing stuff down, what about emotion cards or trigger cards? 

Like rather than just floating along dissociated and getting nothing out of the appt, hold up a card that says  'dissociated' so your therapist maybe switches tact? 

[Bow]

Going by how I am feeling about the appointment now, she’ll know something is up and will ask… so hopefully I have enough confidence to tell her the truth @Jynx  but that feels really scary. I feel like you gotta have some kind of confidence/reassurance and whatever else to be able to tell someone that they aren’t a safe person cause safety feels like such a huge important thing? It’s being vulnerable. 

I don’t know what goals I’d have. It’s hard to think about that when I don’t even wanna be there and don’t trust her. 

I could use cards. That I can do. 

[Jynx]

Unfortunately that's a trap I've encountered myself @Bow the whole 'can't tell you you're unsafe because you're too unsafe to tell you' thing. Perhaps enjoining it with a 'goals' oriented discussion could help? 

Like saying 'hey I feel like I can't work on my therapeutic goals because I don't feel like I can be open here. Can we make that our first priority' how would that go? 

[Jynx]

Unfortunately that's a trap I've encountered myself @Bow the whole 'can't tell you you're unsafe because you're too unsafe to tell you' thing. Perhaps enjoining it with a 'goals' oriented discussion could help? 

Like saying 'hey I feel like I can't work on my therapeutic goals because I don't feel like I can be open here. Can we make that our first priority' how would that go? 

[Bow]

Yeah that feels like it could be more manageable and something I could potentially say to her @Jynx 

[Jynx]

@Bow awesome! And like... you ARE allowed to leave early, but be mindful of letting em know you're safe (or if you're not!) if you do so! 

Hope there's nothing else on for remainder of day? 

Also skedaddling soon just so you know!

[Bow]

Yeah, or they chase me down with phone calls and call mum! 

I need to duck to the shops too @Jynx  get Easter stuff and hopefully pop into the piercing place and get them to put my daith and tragus back in for me.

thanks for listening to me ramble again 

[Jynx]

Oh yeah! Ugh getting those put back in is a pain @Bow hope I don't need an mri any time soon, I don't wanna take my helix piercings out yet!! It's been over 6 months now but I'm a slow healer, mainly cos I am super clumsy and keep knocking/snagging it 😵😅

Oh you're so welcome! Hope the appt goes as well as it can tomorrow, and you can come vent about it here afterwards of course!! Tea needs spillin hehe

I'm off darlin, hope you have a chill night, catch you soon 💜

[Bow]

Hi @tyme 

how r u?

[tyme]

Hey @Bow ,

I just sent you an email. 

I'm well. Good to see you. I didn't want to interrupt your convo with our awesome Jynx 🙂