Time away from forums

[creative_writer]

@Jynx it is challenging. It just shows you that it’s not just my mum, I have other relatives. More shit happens in my extended family than I would like to admit. My mum’s SIL 1 is the reason why her relationship with her brother was estranged. I never got to know him, and I am still bitter about it, it’s too late, he’s gone. My mum’s SIL 1 is a really toxic person so I never see her, she doesn’t feel like family. You can kind of see why my mum may have trust issues. The stuff with SIL 1, MIL and even some relatives.

@Snowie I feel like SA is hard at any age.I’m glad you have your hubby, hon. Having support helps. I was young but not as young as you. I still behaved like an adolescent at the time, like many 19-20 year olds do. Since I had other shit happening at the time with bipolar being out of whack, I never processed it until years later. It’s also hard to process things when trauma happens over time. You learn to detach. I was probably sometime is my early twenties when I came to the realisation. I never felt like it happened to me, it was so weird. It felt like it was someone else’s story. I’m not sure what brought it about to be honest, I think coming to that realisation something really wrong happened caused my MH to take a turn. I do believe it played a role in my very frequent self harming behaviour even before I processed it, I just didn’t make the connection

[creative_writer]

Good night @Jynx. Will talk to you soon 💖😀

[Snowie]

Good afternoon @creative_writer 

Hoping that your day is going ok hon.

Sending some much needed 💕💕

[creative_writer]

@Snowie I’m not great. How are you?

[Snowie]

Around if you need a chat, unload, distraction @creative_writer 

Still don't feel well myself

[creative_writer]

@Snowie I think this illness has screwed up my brain.

Here to chat too, I know it’s been rough for you lately 💖

[Snowie]

I don't think its screwed up your brain @creative_writer but I can understand why you think this way. Sometimes we get such mixed messages and our thoughts/thinking is so messed up.

Sometimes I feel like my brain is my own worst enemy. 

It does make it really hard at times.

[creative_writer]

@Snowie my MH has gone downhill from when I got sick and it’s not picking up even though my physical symptoms have improved. I want something to take this pain away.

Totally relate to brain being the worst enemy. I hope you’ve been able to take care of yourself today 💖

[Snowie]

That pain can be so hard and frustrating @creative_writer 

Can you think short term? How to get through the rest of the day, or even just getting through the next hour or so. Sometimes I find breaking things down is the only way to get through.

For my next hour I've got my oddie on, heater on, cuppa in hand and talking to my friends on here. How about you?

[creative_writer]

@Snowie I listened to some prayers and changed into my warm track pants, was cold in my leggings. I have to start getting ready for tomorrow. Gotta find my basics in my closet for tomorrow, I’ll be wearing my coat and boots on top. Good thing about winter is you can always put a coat on top of a comfy t shirt or high neck top, saves sorting out outfits