Don’t want to accept the pain

[Jynx]

@creative_writer I think we would have been friends in school LOL I was the weird kid too!! People made sure to tell me all the time 😒

I am so glad I learned to embrace my inner weirdo!! I hope you get to embrace yours a lil bit when you're here, too 😋

Oooo thanks for the recommendation!! I need more jojoba too so maybe it's time for an oil splurge!! Teehee

[creative_writer]

@Jynx the quirky kids do stand out from the others. I think embracing your inner weirdo is a journey, I’m on mine right now.

Ohhh I use jojoba oil too, but it’s mixed with other oils. It moisturises my skin without feeling heavy. I don’t like heavy creams and oil for my skin. I can do olive oil on my hair since it’s super dry, but even then I don’t go overboard.

[Jynx]

@creative_writer heck yeah!! I'm so here for it!! 😍💜

Oh it's so good hey, I read somewhere that jojoba has the closest chemical makeup to the natural oils in our skin!! I got it recommended for ear stretching, but found it was also perfect as a lil extra moisture for when the winter gets all harsh on my skin!!

[creative_writer]

@Jynx  I’ve about that for jojoba oil too. I haven’t heard about jojoba oil and ear stretching. Jojoba oil is a multi use product. I hope you slept okay last night. My sleep was better, not quite perfect, maybe it’s going to take time to settle this irritable mood

[creative_writer]

I’m tired of struggling with this agitation, I’m tired of feeling energised yet so exhausted. I’m tired of my body aching every single day

[rav3n]

hey @creative_writer i can hear how exhausted you feel, sending you some healing energy 💙

how's your Sunday going? 

[creative_writer]

@rav3n I am so confused about why things have been hard lately. I get these panic attacks and I don't even know what makes them come on. I think I am stuck in flight and fight mode.

I haven't been up to much today because I can't. I sort of shut down when I'm too overwhelmed and end up doing nothing. I hope your Sunday has been better ❤️

[rav3n]

@creative_writer that's really rough, it's almost more anxiety-provoking when we don't know why those thoughts/feelings pop up, hey. i shut down when i'm overwhelmed too, it's okay if todays one of those 'do nothing' days. i hope next week will be brighter for you 💜

my sunday hasn't been the best either. i've been sick on and off this week, and today it got worse and now i'm losing my voice. had some lemon, ginger and honey tea tho and i've layered up so fingers crossed it'll be fine soon 🍵

[creative_writer]

@rav3n I keep getting intrusive thoughts, they won’t leave. The thoughts are so debilitating, it’s hard to move. The heavy head isn’t helping. I’m having intrusive thoughts about the past, and urges to do things I shouldn’t. I’m safe.

I hope you feel better soon 💖

[rav3n]

i hear you, it must be even harder to challenge/fight those thoughts when you're already tired @creative_writer proud of you for working on staying safe, it takes so so much strength to do it.

it's hard keeping the past in the past at times, did something happen recently to bring it about?