My Mosaic

[Snowie]

I'm sorry @Bow your anxiety is bad hon.

Am here with you sweetie 💕💕

[Bow]

Are you watching anything good @Snowie ?

[Snowie]

Just watching Big Bang Theory on my laptop @Bow I have all the episodes on it.

Keeping me entertained for now.

Have you got any plans for tomorrow? Not that we can do much!

[Bow]

@Snowie I've never really watched the Big Bang... ex was a fan though.

I need to pop back to bunnings quickly tomorrow before they go to click and collect only. I have bought myself a hanging chair, should arrive in the post this week and need the hooks to hang it. Not sure entirely what I'll need so need to be able to go in and look. Then we will plant the seedlings I got today and do some other things in the garden. Should keep us busy for a while. 

[Snowie]

That sounds like a good day @Bow Hopefully you can get to Bunnings and get what you need before they close down.

Big Bang Theory is my go to show. When there is nothing else on tv I will watch it or if I am feeling down I will watch it. 

[Bow]

I'm glad you have a show like that that you can watch when dowb @Snowie  are you feeling down tonight? 

I took my meds early tonight. Hope to be asleep soon, just not feeling right tonight and it's best that I just go to sleep. 

[Snowie]

Yeah feeling down tonight @Bow 

Lots of thoughts and things going through my mind but I will be ok. Just have to stay up for awhile yet, have to pick up D from work at 11pm.

I hope you are able to get some sleep tonight hon. Sometimes it is better if we can just go to sleep and tomorrow comes.

[Bow]

I'm sorry your feeling down tonight too @Snowie and that you have to wait up so late. How old is your d? Will she get her license soon? Guess it's all part of having kids eh, being a taxi!

yeah, sometimes it's just best to go to bed. Sometimes I have this horride dread of having to go to bed though, knowing that tomorrow will arrive and everything will be the same. The same thoughts, the same feelings, the same circumstances. nothing changes. I guess a bit like Groundhog Day. Sometimes I absolutely hate going to bed cause I know that I will wake up. 

it's been a week since my attempt. This time last week we had fire pit and then I tucked my d into bed and said goodbye. All the same things tonight. Fire pit, marshmallows and I've just tucked my d into bed again. I told her that I loved her and that I would see her in the morning. I'm still not in a great place but I will see the morning. 

[Snowie]

I am glad you will see D in the morning hon @Bow All you can do is take it day by day. It sounds like you have a wonderful relationship with her.

I feel like that at times too going to bed. There are some times where I just don't want to wake up in the morning.

My D is 15. She will be 16 in about 2 weeks and has booked in for her learners. So I still have a few more years being a taxi for her.

[Bow]

I do have a sweet relationship with my d @Snowie  I hope she grows up and it's stays that way. She actually just came into my room and crawled into bed for a snuggle. Gone back to her bed now and hopefully she is a little more settled now. She is a bit snotty tonight. 

Will you teach your d to drive? Or will hubby? Do you have to do a certain number of hours down there?